Monthly Archives: April 2013

Love or Fear?


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Love to you!


It’s a new moon in a couple of days.  It’s time to let go of the past.  It’s time to let go of any ‘stuff’ we’re holding onto; pain, old patterns, beliefs & assumptions; anything which doesn’t serve us.

When there’s something going on in our life which is causing us pain; especially if it brings up a similar feeling as before that lasts more than a few seconds and it has a charge, it’s got nothing to do with others, it’s to do with us.  When we clear our internal world, then dramas, illness, pain etc. don’t manifest in the outside world.

I share a simple technique in the video which will allow you to see why you might be creating what you DON’T love in your external world.
Your external world simply reflects what’s inside of you which needs looking at and releasing.  As one of my mentors, The Chocolate Shaman used to say; “When you look in the mirror and you don’t like what you see, you don’t try and change the mirror.”

Happy New Moon and new world people.
I love you!

“No problem can be solved from the same consciousness that created it.” Albert Einstein


1.  What is the pattern or issue you’re dealing with?  A short sentence will suffice.

2.  What’s the main emotion underneath this… (fear will generally be at the root of it).

3.  Set the intention to get to the root of the emotion, of that feeling.  “I choose to get to the root of the (whatever emotion, fear for instance) fear which is holding me back.”

4.  Close your eyes, connect with your guides, angels, higher self (a ceremonial dose of cacao an hour before will aid in the journey)…  Reconnect with the intention to get to the root of the emotion or the problem which is holding you back.

5.  Imagine you’re walking on a path in a forest, (this can be a path you imagine, or a path you know).  Now imagine you approach a clearing, and in the clearing you see a large tree, this is the world tree.  It is a majestic tree with branches reaching so high you can’t see where they reach, and roots going deep down into the earth, and deep down into your subconscious memory store.

6.  Imagine now that as you approach the tree, you notice a door in the trunk of the tree.  You approach the tree and you open the door, there’s a spiral staircase inside.  This is a very safe spiral staircase which leads downwards.   At the bottom of this spiral staircase, is the root of the emotion which is holding you back.

7.  You’re going to walk down the staircase counting down from 10 to 1.  When you get to 1 you’re going to be at the the bottom of the staircase and at the root of the emotion which is holding you back and standing in the way of what you love.

8.  Count yourself down from 10-1.

9.  At 1, you’re at the bottom of the staircase and at the root of the emotion which is holding you back.   Now allow an age in your early childhood emerge.  Now let a memory to come to mind, what’s happening?  What is the incident?

10.  How are you feeling?   What do you feel in your body?

11.  What number on a scale of 1-10 would you give that pain or that feeling?

12.  Breathe into the feeling… breathe in through the nose, and out of the mouth releasing the feeling.  Keep breathing until it’s released.  Keep breathing it out until the number on the scale is 0.  Feel the feeling and as you breathe out, really blow that feeling out.

13.  Now ask yourself the question, what did you make up about yourself, life or others because of this?

14.  Now, set the intention to connect with your higher self.  Rise above this incident, the memory.  See it from a higher level, from the perspective of you as a divine soul, as spirit.  What’s going on?

You’ll generally see that the incident in a physical form was agreed to have been played out so that you could learn something.  What have you learned?

15.  Can you see how has this impacted upon your life?

16.  What would you love to create now?  What would you love?  Keep asking this question, what else would you love?

‘The imagination is the preview of life’s coming attractions.’  Albert Einstein

Until we release a pattern it will come back again, and again and again.  We will also attract others to push our buttons so we learn.  When the same things happens to us and it doesn’t trigger us -HURRAH, it’s celebration time 😉

We’re all learning how to relieve suffering and alchemize everything so we can move on clearer, stronger wiser and create what we DO love.

“Pain is inherent, suffering is optional.” Joseph Campbell

Happy Journeying People!


Ascension Magic & Patterns


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Love to you!





I must share an incredible vision I had this morning as I tuned into my ‘Land of Plenty’.

The Land of Plenty is a place in our consciousness where everything our heart loves has already manifested.  It’s a Native American technique which allows you to leave your ego behind and see with the eyes of innocence everything which is true for you to create in your life.  These things normally lie hidden behind the mists of our thoughts, beliefs and assumptions.  In your Land of Plenty you get clarity on the path your soul is calling you to take and you can choose to consciously create what is true for you, guided by your intuition.

So, I tuned into one of the choices I have around my life purpose; ‘I choose the end result of sharing my Shamanic wisdom and humor every week through my events & writing.’

One of the realizations I had was the perfection of me and my path.  I realised that I already AM the butterfly; I have transformed.  My ego, however has been making me believe that I’m still the caterpillar!  I CAN fly and my DNA has already changed.  I already am the new paradigm Goddess of Love (tongue slightly in cheek as I say that).

“The stronger you become, the gentler you will be.” Credit unknown

I’ve been doing quite a lot of work on myself recently, realizing and clearing old patterns and I’d temporarily fallen into the ‘OMG there’s A LOT wrong with me zone.’  Of course, I still have some clearing to do, but I have gained a wiser, higher perspective of my patterns and why I’ve been feeling pain.

I’ve had a beautiful connection with a man who totally tapped into my biggest wound…  Our pain is created when we are children, and this originated when I was 6 when my dad died, yet the news was hidden from me (bla de bla, there’s a lot more ‘story’ but it’s unnecessary to share it).

Anyway, this has been a great source of pain throughout my life, bringing up trust issues, abandonment, etc.  I buried the pain for most of my life and it only started to come out in my closest relationships years later as I slowly peeled away the layers around my heart for healing.

As I’ve alchemised this pain over the years, it’s also been the source of my greatest treasure.  I wouldn’t have the life purpose I have and which I ADORE if it wasn’t for it.  I wouldn’t have a big juicy, vulnerable, yet strong heart either.  Nor my wisdom, humor and knowledge!

When this ‘wound’ was reactivated, I totally went into blame and anger and all the other stuff.  With the wisdom of hindsight, I realised that it’s pretty much nothing to do with anyone apart from me.  In fact he was doing me a service.  I was totally conscious of my ‘wound’ and how it was creating pain with this connection; it goes without saying that those we love WILL push our buttons, they’re the ones we let into our hearts and all our walls and our barriers come down!  What I failed to realise for a while was that my reactions and pain was the same old, same old I’ve been feeling for a  long time when I let someone into my heart.  I realised that I had a choice, to simply feel it intensely and deeply, then to allow myself to step out of it.

These are times of great change and those who ‘push our buttons’ are doing us a great service as they’re showing us what needs healing.

These are agreements we had before this lifetime; it’s such a gift that these people are doing their jobs so well (lol), so that we we move more and more into the dream of light, the lighter, higher vibrations we can leave this stuff behind… at last!

Does this give you a chance to reevaluate some difficult connections you might have?  Perhaps when you dive deep into it or into the feelings that come up, you’ll recognize them from the past?  Are you the common denominator here?  Is the repeated pattern, repeating with YOU as the main character?  Is it time to let go of this pattern?

I believe that when we feel a ‘negative’ emotion for more than a few seconds it has nothing to do with the current situation, it’s simply tapping into a memory from our childhood which needs healing.

I feel very lucky that this pattern came up again.  Like a caterpillar slooowly coming out of its cocoon I saw the gift as I learned to disassociate from the story and the feelings, heal and change my perspective.

When this happens again I’ll know to step back and simply observe, the red flag being triggered simply won’t require me to react.  Even if I do feel pain, I won’t judge myself for it, or judge the other for ‘triggering’ me.  In time, even the pain will disappear, in fact it might have already gone…

I’ve known for a while that whenever I feel pain, or experience conflict, it’s never to do with anyone outside of me… it’s all to do with me.  Even with this knowledge, I was still getting triggered, but now I feel like I have the freedom to step out of the negative loop and simply observe.  This is a powerful place, a place of freedom and a space of knowing that in any one moment I can choose how I feel, react, and ultimately what I create.  The state of AWARENESS!

This experience has opened my heart so much.  It was painful, but oh, such a gift… my treasure.

I have a lot of one to one clients at the moment and I’m generally holding an event every week; as soon as I had this breakthrough I was able to serve others in a much clearer, wiser way…

I could allow them to access their own wisdom in a similar way.  Often we would connect with their inner child to gain healing, wisdom and guidance.  I feel like this learning will guide others more and more into their vulnerability; their hearts so that we can co-create a juicy new world of love!

This new wisdom has made me softer, bigger hearted, lighter and I am eternally grateful!  I have such a love and respect for men; especially for my father for being the first one to gift me with the seed for this story and for you, who I trust by sharing my it will feel empowered to look at where you might be blaming others for what’s happening in your life.

Take your power back and see how your internal world is creating your external world.  It’s all been perfectly designed for you; so well done, you’re right on course!  Take 100% responsibility, it is SO liberating.

Dawn Butterfly taken by Gerri McMahon

You too are the butterfly, and remember the butterfly can never see the beauty of its own wings!

I love you!